Jilian’s Blog

its me again….well, had my results yesterday n unfortunately my position as well…..ever since last yr , i have been getting fucked up marks….pmr is like 6months more n here i am failing !!!!! how much i study also….ppl who nvr touch the book , do better…tht aint fair….which is why im giving up on life !!!!! i have "a fren" not to even hang out with me…bsides the reason i gave her…there r other reasons but like its gonna help….its not tht i wanna hurt her…bcoz i cant seem to handle anything nowadays….so im like giving up few things including friendship now !!!!! n its not a normal friendship….where its a common among the ppl…..trhe friendship i had….was soooooo special coz we r soooo bloody close….we fight….after few days…..sure to talk back…but dun reli think thts gonna happen now after my results…im giving up !!!!!! seriously…..i had enough….since lasy yr….everyday is fucked up, problem after problem…i thought it was stop this yr but its still continuing like i got nth else to do but jz keep solving problems…if i have to give up on my entire life….i will do it…i got nth to loose….coz i lost everything already…what else do i have to loose ??

well , here i am again….well , things havent been going reli reli well , its jz ok only……my greds r ok except for science which is totally baddddddd !!!!!! then had a fight with anu , our whole gang is not talking to her……n we do have a good reason why we r not talking to her…..sarah started of with a letter….hahahahah….the scene actually happen in canteen….holidays this time was abitttt fun……cousins came down…..so hanged out at telawi most of the time n mv…..heheheheh…..then things arent going well in my love life actually….it kinda sux coz its been 4months since i havent a move or said anything…..i talk to the guy mostly like everyday now…n i still cant say anything !!!!!! wtf la !!!!!!……its getting kinda frustrating n irritating coz it sux !!!!!! 4 months heading for the 5th one now!!!! damn it !!!! it sux waiting……!!!!! have to say sum thin but how ???? ……..