Jilian’s Blog

well…….here i am again…still sober  , coz its inda afternoon…hahahaha…been drinking since sunday non stop…i drink it assive its water….n afew times i jz drank it like tht….no mixing…..jz pure liqiour….im not suppose to drink this yr at all coz its my pmr yr n here i am having fun!!! wtf la !!! n i do have reasons on why am i drinking….but i have nvr drank until 4 days in a row n i think this will b the 5th day….why ?????  is it soooo bloody hard to have a normal happy life??? every angle,…there will b a prob n sumtimes the prob is soooooo huge tht u jz wanna give up….im soooo damn pissed off !!! my life is already fuckep up n adding probs to it makes it even worse….n i cant handle it…so i drink !!! n ppl can ask me….why am i drinking ?? well….i jz gave u d answer actually….i have no idea on where am i heading too in life coz i have to know….otherwise….its actually pointless living when i dun even know….how to make use of my life…..i mite stop drinking n see how long i can last without drinking…..coz im actually kinda addicted…..so yea…..